Give it to God - Honouring the Raw Emotion

I woke up angry.

And with that anger came its twin shadows—guilt and shame.

How dare I feel this way when I can see the blessings in front of me every single day?

I whispered an apology to God, like I had done so many times before: I know I’m grateful, I see the gifts, but I’m still angry and frustrated.

And then, almost out of habit, I began listing the things I was thankful for, hoping to soften the edges of my emotion, to prove that I wasn’t being ungrateful.

There is a deeper wisdom in allowing the shadow its space.

The Problem with Rushing to the Light

This is something many of us are taught in spiritual circles—that the cure for discomfort is gratitude, that the “higher road” is to transform anger quickly into light. Gratitude is sacred, yes, but lately I’ve been realizing that something important gets lost when we rush too fast to get there.

There is a deeper wisdom in allowing the shadow its space. In speaking the truth of our feelings—without guilt, without apology, without covering them up with “but I’m grateful.” Because gratitude that rises before we’ve honoured the storm is often not gratitude at all—it’s bypassing.

Source didn’t shrink away—God held me, and the light broke through.

Meeting God in the Raw and Messy

That morning, I let myself say the words as they were. Raw. Messy. Unfiltered. And what I discovered was surprising: God didn’t shrink away. The divine held me. Spirit made space for the anger. And once it was spoken, my heart softened naturally.

The Power of Release in the Body

And then something shifted. Something broke open inside of me, and I felt the release move through my body. The stuck energy didn’t just leave quietly—it announced itself. I started burping, my skin grew damp with a light sweat, and there was a tingling sensation rushing through me, almost like the Spirit was clearing space cell by cell. It was a full-body exhale, a deep, undeniable letting go.

It was powerful.

And from that clearing, gratitude returned—not forced, not layered on top, but born out of honesty.

Wholeness Means Being Real

This is what I want to remind myself, and maybe you too: wholeness isn’t about being “positive” all the time. It’s about being real. It’s about honouring the full spectrum of emotion—anger, grief, shame, frustration—without shame. When we give them space, they move. And in the clearing, gratitude comes back to us in its purest form.

So if you find yourself waking up heavy one morning, try this: speak the truth of what you feel, even if it’s not pretty. Trust that God—Source, the Divine—is big enough to hold it all.

Because real healing doesn’t come from perfect words. It comes from honesty.

Give it to God - A Meditation to Support Your Release

And if you need support in this, I’ve recorded a meditation called Give It To God. It’s a gentle practice where you can lay it all out and envision the Divine carrying your burdens, transmuting them with love—without guilt, without shame, only truth and release.

Chara